Intuitive Eating – Update

IMG_4225I’m now on the last module of Christy Harrison’s Intuitive Eating course, so it seems a good time to reflect on where I’m at and what I’ve learned. I love that the course was self-paced and I could take as long as I wanted to work through and think about each module. It was certainly about more than food, just like the book. It was about really getting to know yourself and getting in touch with your intuition.

For me, the course has definitely met and exceeded any expectations and hopes that I had.

Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch promise in their excellent book that when you become an Intuitive Eater that one of three things will happen. You will lose weight, gain weight, or maintain your current weight. In my case, I have gained weight. I have no idea of the numbers as I don’t weigh myself but I know how clothes fit and I’ve definitely got bigger. Learning to accept this has been a big part of the course for me. But I realise that following the tenets of Intuitive Eating is actually the way for my body to reach its set range, and I can’t tell my body what that range is. That’s just not how it works.

I’m sure that there will still be times when the weight bothers me because I live in this society where we are constantly bombarded with the message that our weight and size determine our value. Like many others before me, I call bullshit on that. But between podcasts, Facebook groups and following a heap of awesome body positive people on Instagram (some time soon I’ll share links of all my favourites) I know that it will only be a temporary glitch and that I’ll get through it and move on. Even though I probably meet less societal standards of beauty than I have at any other time in my life, I feel good about myself and the way I look in a way I never have before. Considering we’ve recently moved into an apartment with a lot of mirrors, including in the kitchen, this is great news!

I don’t think I have any more ‘Honeymoon Periods‘ to deal with. I want to eat balanced meals most of the time and if I feel like chocolate, or a donut, or ice cream, I have it and I don’t feel any guilt about it. It really does make you crave it much less when you take away all restriction. I feel so at peace with many foods that I never could have imagined I would. I’m enjoying cooking and thinking about preparing meals more than I have possibly ever.

As for Intuitive Movement, this has been an interesting process for me. Initially I cut right back on what I was doing fitness-wise as I knew that I had a lot of body composition and weight loss thoughts in my head when I was exercising. I wanted to look strong and fit to be a ‘good vegan advocate’ seeing as this is the message that is so prevalent in the vegan movement.

I did yoga for 2 months, which I did get benefit out of, especially as it was an extremely body positive and accepting class that I joined. A lot of the focus was on having the right to take up space in the world, which was a message that I needed to hear and absorb. But I eventually realised that yoga is just not something I love to do. I can see why other people do, but it’s just not for me.

I’ve cut back on my running compared to what I used to do and am enjoying it much more. I’ve taken the pressure away to be faster and go longer every time I run (another thing I thought I should do to be a better vegan advocate, ugh) and just get up and run as much as I feel like at the time. And it’s so much more fun once you take away the expectations and just enjoy it.

Lifting weights is something else I enjoy but I had to let that go for a while too. I had to wait until those voices in my head weren’t pushing me to focus on all the wrong things. And I love to lift weights because it feels awesome. I honestly don’t care what response my body has in terms of composition because I just love the feeling. And my partner’s kid is a personal trainer and can give advice so I don’t have to sift through weight loss and body building crap to find the information I need. I made the mistake of googling something on it this morning. Won’t do that again.

And how has veganism fit into this whole thing? Honestly for me it’s not even an issue. Animals just aren’t ours to exploit and I could no more eat a chicken or a pig than I could eat my dog. Which is never under any circumstances in case that wasn’t abundantly clear 🙂 And the same goes for eggs and dairy as the harm is at least as high there. To say that I am restricting my diet because I am vegan is like saying that I am restricting my diet because I don’t eat dogs or humans. Technically true in a sense, but completely irrelevant in reality.

Something that has been reiterated during the course and in various podcasts has been the importance of knowing one’s values and living in line with those values. For me this has to unequivocally mean being vegan in the same way that it means being unequivocally feminist and anti-racist and body positive.

All in all, the verdict is pretty darn positive for this Intuitive Eating stuff. In the picture above I am in the city eating a Vego bar which is a delicious fair trade chocolate bar. This is me now. Happy and eating what makes me feel good. I consider myself to be an Intuitive Eater. I feel fantastic physically and mentally. I think my mental health is better than it has ever been at any other point in my life and my physical health certainly isn’t suffering. I feel happier than I’ve ever been and I look forward to what comes next.

~ B




Intuitive Eating


This is on my pinup board these days. I am even more sure of Intuitive Eating and its role in changing my life for the better than when I first read the book a few months ago. I found the stars while clearing out stuff and put them there because they’re pretty 🙂 In the past those same stars have been ‘earned’ for eating ‘right’ and exercising. I’m glad that stuff is in the past. Now I get stars just because. And why not?

I’m so grateful to Lacy from Rise & Resist for recommending the Intuitive Eating book on the podcast. It was just the right thing for me at the perfect time. Following McDougall along with other things was really messing with my head and I was starting to realise that for my mental health I had to stop having so many rules about food. I thought this would mean I would have to deprioritise my physical health but turns out that’s not the case at all. Once you start reading the science behind Intuitive Eating and Health at Every Size you realise this whole thing is actually better than any kind of restriction.

One of the first things I realised is that despite never consciously going ‘on a diet’ I’ve spent most of my adult life caught up in the diet mentality, mostly under the sneaky pseudonym of ‘healthy eating’.

I knew that reading the book wouldn’t be enough to make the change with all the diet culture that was so ingrained from the past and that we are all continually bombarded with. So I’ve been listening to lots of podcasts on the topic and also signed up for an online course. I’m currently somewhere around ‘challenge the food police’ at the moment 🙂

It’s a slow process and I know I have a way to go but I’m already feeling so much better mentally and physically and I’m really looking forward to eventually become an Intuitive Eater 🙂

I’m also accepting that my ‘set point weight’ is not what I’d always strived for/thought I should or could be. This is challenging, mostly because I hear others’ voices about it, but also really freeing.

There’s a reason nutrition is at the end of the process. Not because it doesn’t matter but because if you focus on it too early it is too wound up with restrictive/dieting thoughts and will send you backwards. I know that I’m definitely not in a head space right now to focus on nutrition at all. These women know their stuff 🙂

On my run the other day I listened to Rise & Resist and it was so great to hear Holly and Lacy reflect on Intuitive Eating 12 months in. Holly’s even going to do an Olympic lifting comp without tracking calories or macros, but just sticking to IE. So inspiring!

~ B